I feel like I am swallowing a huge painful meatball everytime I swallow my saliva! And it has been making me irriated and irritatingly down.
BUT! whenever I am down, I see my lovely feet and smile 
Shuyi helped me paint my toe nails. LOVE her hahaha. So she encourages me even when she is not there! hahaha
now I know what mani and pedi are for.
Today was just like any other day, other than people wishing me happy birthday and my mum making ox tail stew and failed. haha the stew tasted like chinese tomato and beef soup! hahahahaha It is supposed to be the best day of the year. But honestly, I think I love so many more days better. Whether it is sleepovers with chloe or tsd outings (especially the ones after long, hard slogging that is great too! haha)
Happy bday hamster!
Why am I not elated to see the over 70 sms and facebook bday wishes? Cus about half of them don’t exactly know me. A year ago I would be so happy with the 10-20 messages I got and the bday celebration with my friends and family.
Had an unexpected bday celebration today. My cousins came over and brought their kids. I was doing a review and I&R, ignoring them half the time which I felt bad for. Anyways, I did go out of my room and played with them.
Damn cus the previous posted review was super cheem, I got intimidated. Plus, I tend to type whatever comes to mind so it may have seemed incoherent and the analogies I used might not even make sense……. ah well. That’s life.
Had PW in the morn and then church. I was so sleepy by then cus I woke up before 7am for dunno what reason. Then my cousins came. Lucky they come, if not I would have slept and not do any HW or even post this.
kk nights!
Steph
lol.
Its been quite long since tsd has been tsd. We are kinda back to the days with plays to go to and reviews to write. Which is a really long time ago.
Hamid thought I had worked with him for a year already but it has been no more than 4 months. That’s why I feel that this year’s gonna feel like 3/4 years. Its as if Mangay left on the first year, before everything started, CX left on the third year and now we are nearing the end/start of the 4th year with a few people leaving. It’s as if the ‘years’ are marked with ppl leaving….ah well, that’s life. People come and go after each transition of your life.
I know I am living because of friends, family, love and laughter. Earning a living is hard. Sometimes I understand Boo’s need to love. I really need to love! to sacrifice, to comfort, to be there. CB2 was my greatest pain, but it was my greatest ministry. I don’t mean to be saddist but I love that pain. I guess that is why I love TSD. Cus it is the only thing I have now that makes me willingly sacrifice and work hard.
I guess to me love is sacrifice and grateful/loving pain. That is why I say I “really love” CB2, Chloe, TSD,musical and my brother. Cus I have never sacrificed for anything else.
P.S. sorry for the incoherence/jumping from one thought to the other. I am kinda trying to find out more about myself lol.
oh no I am coughing. Fifi spread it to me! I think I also sorta scratched my eye, literally. PAIN!
Looking at the sota kids reminds me of seeing their curriculum and school building in the newspapers last year. I really felt that I don’t mind repeating a few years of education for it. Even so, it is nearly impossible for me to join sota.
TSD may have been stressful but it has only made me love theatre so so much more. Before TSD I really can’t say I love theatre cus I hated drama club. But now I think I really love it. 
Ah well, after these 2 years, I suppose I will never have a chance to touch theatre again anyway. sigh……….
Anyways, WR is finally over! Woohoo! and my mum just topped up money for me for the theatre stuff DD Even though I keep asking for money this year, she say I am very sensible, spend very wisely. LOL Aiya, at least I didn’t shop the whole of last year to make up for it, not even for CNY.
o and Happy Birthday to: Jasmine, Hamid, Me and Yu yang!!!!!
I went to watch a play yesterday. There was a whole class of sec 1 ballet sota kids there. I looked at their prim and proper hair and their young faces and was so jealous. They are so young and they get to watch this kind of play, which by the way mist be subsidiesed/paid for for them only. They are really a priveledged bunch of performers.
LOL I still can’t believe they can watch this kinda thing. I mean it was about globalisation and capitalism. When I was 15, my teacher introduced the word to our class and I couldn’t even begin to grasp what the word meant. If they have the maturity of thought to watch these kinda things, I wish I was in sota when i was in sec school. O level sure own english hahahahha can study philo also hahah
anyways, pw is in an hour’s time, better get ready……
After the mugging and going-crazy-over-IS phase, my mind suddenly works a lot less. Hence the symptoms of being senile.
1. Forgeting names: I swear, I forget so many people’s names I can’t believe it.
2. Forgeting things, being less on task.
3. Being plain childish. Note: not childlike, childish!
yup I can’t believe I am saying this, but I am so glad there is OP! It is sort of a performance and I have think in order for ideas to flow. Plus there is no more editing for WR woohoo! All we have to do is reine the ideas, add a bit here and there, make sure AE and GI which I KNOW I CAN DO so my mind won’t switch off.
Now I am preparing for OP 2moro! So excited, hamid has taken the role of a worrier and I took the roleof the person being anal. I am only anal cus I love ppt! haha he loves microsoft word, I love powerpoint!!!!!! Ok ok……anyways, the only bummer is stupid chinese! aiya, 1 week 3 days and it is soooo over!
Steph
What do you do when you made your very existence about some people, some places, and you find that they are not a part of your life anymore? – waiwan
Sometimes that is what happens when you really seize the day.
Anyways, yesterday I realise how everyday, I can’t stop appreciating the people around me. I mean I feel so lucky to have all of them in my life. I think this year will be the first xmas I have so many cards I really want to give out.( I might not have to wait till xmas, I can give cards when I find out I failed promos.)
Even though tests are so damn hard to pass and I screw up (cus I am unlucky), I still think I am one of the luckiest girls in the world!
©2009 ~d-a-r-e-k
Chloe’s coming today! update later on our “progress” on studying hahaha
Oh I “caught up” with someone very recently and it wasn’t very pretty. Maybe I am too sentimental for my own sake…….. (counting the years makes me feel so old)
I just saw like 5 of the hard questions from there and I am like….huh? ok it is do-able. Every technique should have been covered by priary schools I don’t see why they are complaining. Maybe a few more steps needed but hey, they get claculators and it is nothing like the PSLE science paper we got back in 2004. Man! I still could remember the fact that a lecturer in the university said that one of the questions can be BOTH YES AND NO! LOL. Seriously, that paper was mostly out of syllabus and maybe even unsolvable (no absolute answer). Even though students still got the grade they deserved because of the bell curve, overall PSLE marks were affected.
Anyways, it IS unfair to categorize them at such a young age based on mostly science subjects….They even make science and math compulsory in O levels. Maybe some students are more artsy? I don’t know. But it is unfair to make people who could do extremely well in arts, go to a not-so-good school and the science, memorising geek to get the privilege of better education in the elite schools. (you cannot deny the disparity in privileges, I mean how would you explain the 90% As for PW in MJC)
Ah, hearing parents complain almost every year for PSLE. Oh, the joy of life!
